Today I had a moment of clarity. It was clear to me that the moments of last year up to this very point of time was needed to prepare me to be in this place of wholeness and healing.

This week I was struck with a weird bout of flu/stomach virus type symptoms. I was then prompted to take time off of work so that I could nurse myself back to better health. During my time off, I was utterly and completely bored! Lol My go to source of mindless entertainment, Netflix,  couldn’t satisfy my boredom. All I could do was sleep and take multiple doses of Dayquil/Nyquil to help squelch some of the symptoms . Little did I know that my body decided to let me know that I needed a time out from life and people. I cancelled all my plans and was literally sick and shut-in the entire weekend.

This afternoon, for some reason, I got the urge to clean, organize, and put everything in it’s place. (Now this is not to stay that I don’t clean regularly) Something was different about this time. This time, I felt at peace, excited even, to clean and organize. It felt like the pieces of my life were being put together with every piece of dirt that I washed away. Who knows what had me on a high. Was it the sickness, the medicine, or divine timing?..lol.

As I was sitting and admiring all that I had put away and cleaned, I had a memory come to mind about where I was a year ago. I remembered feeling defeated, angry, and depressed. I was uncertain as to where my life was going to take me. I was in between living spaces. Putting on airs that everything was okay and I was alright.

Now, I feel exhilarated and thrilled knowing that what’s promised to me (the desires of my heart) is here for me and I’m open and ready to receive it. I feel triumphant, knowing that the past is the past and I’m the author of my present and future.

Living my life intentionally has been helpful for me to surrender and let go. This is key. for me.

It is wonderful to be able to have these full circle moments.

 

 

 

written 11/11/17